Dear Geli,
your narrowing down has helped me 'getting it' now. I remember clearly 1985, while developing and building computers for trucks in my office in Munich, I looked out the window at the slick trains passing by regularly. And I was thinking about the vast number of dedicated people involved in designing, engineering, building these trains and rail networks plus all the people who run it, made me realise that there would be many amongst them who did their jobs with all their heart. Those thoughts made my heart sing.
Like I did my project at the time - it was massive overload - it probably was sheer madness.
However - even though financially not successful - I got it to work completely, which for me was the most important part in realising my vision.

Shortly after terminating this project my body let me know that I'd overdone something ( 10 weeks in bed with encephalitis ). Perhaps proving some point in Dr. Hamer's discoveries?

Anyway, in essence it is when we encounter people who do what they do with all their heart, that makes us resonate, even cry. Their publicised success exposes them to others, however I feel the same or even more intense, when they don't succeed (in reaching the original goal). I think we both feel in similar ways here.

After all when you do have a vision, a dream and you follow it, then you take the risk of failure, of ridicule, of exhaustion. That's 'the thing', you do it anyway because that is who you are and you attempt to live it because you know that growth for yourself will follow either way. That is the reward.

Geli, when I look at Gayatri it feels to me that it represents for yourself, what I talked about before. To my rational mind your project always looked like sheer madness. :)

But no matter how mad - your heart has always been in it - and my guess - it always will be, and yes, something seems to be shifting - and it feels good. My rational mind cannot grasp the size of your project, fact is it exists: I, and others, can come and be part of it. May be it is just about replacing rationalising with trust.

As to my prior comment: when I read it now I wonder how any other reader (apart from you and me) could ever make sense of that garbled mess at all. As you have picked up, what I basically expressed, was that I couldn't grasp what your long comment was about (or maybe I didn't want to because it felt too much for me).

So all of this leads to communication - or the difficulty we have with that. At school we learn crafts relating to words, languages. Reading, speaking, writing, acting, making movies etc. Eventually we get good marks and we believe we've got it, we can communicate.

As you have pointed out in your original comment, communication is rarely happening: just read a newspaper, watch some TV, listen to some radio. Except for the most basic platitudes - it is rare that the speaker of a word in their inner world has the same meaning attached to it as the person who hears the word. Even if we describe facts correctly, like the glass: is it half empty or is it half full?

To finish this: Family Constellations as you, Geli, facilitate them provide an experience that is in stark contrast to the above. I experience true communication there! Because you allow time to pass by without seemingly anything happening. To me time is one of the most important ingredients. You allow things to unfold in their own time. (Of course: because your heart is in it).

So for those readers who are unfamiliar with constellations: be reassured they are definitely not, what these comments look like. To the contrary: constellations work because there is minimal talking and lots of feeling and expressing those feelings.